UNDONE

" LET YOUR CHILDREN RESPECT YOU OUT OF LOVE THAN RESPECT YOU OUT OF FEAR"

*sigh* I don't get it when she gets irritated sooooooooooo much when you make simple mistakes. Even when you got hurt accidentally, and NOT her, she insisted that you are stupid for getting hurt NOT ON PURPOSE. When you do things or should I say simple mistakes that you don't really want to happen, she yells because she says It's sooooooooo easy and you can't do it perfectly. That just states another you're-just-so-stupid statement. 

I am not stupid. I know right from wrong though, i make mistakes. I learn from it. I grow up. It would have help me a lot if you encourage me.. and not brag. 

Cooling down.

OOOOH. Great. Pissed off again.

      It was last Wednesday that  i started acting a bit strange around him. Maybe because i was really annoyed. Maybe because I don't feel like seeing him with other girls while I'm there sitting and I'm alone and I have nothing to do. I'm not selfish with his own happiness. I just don't want seeing him that way. It makes me annoyed and maybe even jealous..

  Girls have this thing that if they have boyfriends, they want them not only as a boyfriend but also as a best friend. I don't know with boys, but girls agreed with this.


  Today was the celebration of our Filipino culture at school. Everything was really fun. It was tiring, yes. But it was great. Until by the end of the program. *BOOOM! Something happened that i don't really want to share here. I was irritated by the way my classmates acted. Moving on.. I was pissed that time. We went back to our classrooms. Fixing my things, he walked towards me. Then i kind of shared something about the thing I was pissed about, then he was like "Oh, then, what do i have to do about it?" Haaaaaaaay. Even made my feeling worse. Ugh. That made doubt that he can be my best friend.

Having another dream ..

 .. Another dream i don't really want to dream about..

I don't remember everything. I just remembered staying with someone in one corner of a room while he was in the other corner. I remembered walking towards them because the one i was with asked me to. We said our Hi's and Hello's.. Then, he held my hand; He held my waist. He insisted that we should dance. I said yes. We danced in the middle of the room. Then we talked about a lot of stuff; A lot about "US". It felt confusing yet so wonderful. :) He was different that time. He was sweet, not like in real life now. After talking a lot, we sat down by the wall of the room. He found it an opportunity to hug me, and so he did. i rested my back into his chest. Then, we both closed our eyes. It felt so real.


But then again .. It was just a dream. It's an illusion. 

    Cinderella once said, 
" A dream is a wish your heart makes " 

Oooooooooh. How does this really work? :))

Oh well. I think I'll know more about how this 'Blogger' actually work.. somehow.
 Anyway, this week is our examination week. >.< It started last August 17. It was HARD. O.O *sigh*
I know, i need to study more.. That's why, after this..... (DRUM ROLL) I'm gonna study! :) Wew. Well, it's not that surprising. They know i really do study. ;) Ha-ha!
 Another thing is, 

It's my day tomorrow! ♥ 

Nothing to be really excited about, actually. Still, i, myself, can't feel the excitement. I don't feel like growing old. I don't know why. :)) I don't have a choice, though. It still gonna be August 19 tomorrow.

Something doesn't seem right.

♥

Fin.

So far, so good. :)

It's been like a year since my last blog. And i miss it so much.. So many new things have come up and unfortunately, this school year would be the ending year of our high school life. *sigh*

It was, well, so far, so good. :) First quarter is soon to end; Time is running fast. And i can already feel the pressure in applying to colleges. Before i forget, UPCAT has finally ended and i'm so glad it has! :) I'm not sure if i can pass there but i'll just be happy i had the experience. Now, good luck on me and my next journey to other colleges. As my real goal to achieve is see the world, i will take up Tourism. Or maybe journalism. (Maybe a travel journalist would be fun.) 

Skipping the pressuring part of the year.. we move on to how my friends and classmates, had been at this moment. Hm. Let me think.. We are all pressured and exhausted with school stuff, personal stuff, and extra curricular activities. Time management is all we need. :) My classmates had also been interested in this topic called "illuminati" were in famous singers are involved. Which i don't really wanna talk about right now. We recently sang "Bakit ngayon ka lang" and "Runaway" as our Music project and it's a good thing that Teacher Anna, compliments us for an almost perfect choir performance. (Not really to something to brag. I'm just happy and excited.) 


 And my birthday's coming fast.

But i still don't feel it YET. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. Maybe because all i'm focused about right now is SCHOOL. School school school school school = Pressure; Stress; Money loss; Limited time for personal things; Lesser and lesser hours of sleep; Drinking coffee; Eye bags; Heavy bag; Loving friends; New things to learn; Fun days EVERYDAY; Paaaaaaaaaaaaaaarty! \m/

 I'm getting lazier and lazier everyday. *sigh* I'm hungry and I'm tired. I'll be leaving now! ;)